Hi armywifenmom and Belinda, you ladies are incredible inspirations : ) !!! My surgery is different... I have an ileostomy (no colon) but I also wear an appliance that I have problems with. I have always tried to be prepared for panic situations. So, what I do is... wherever I live, I call the local hospital and ask for a "wound ostomy nurse," get their names, and chat with them and give them a little history, in case I need their help later. This way, they already know you a bit. It helps if they know your meds also. Recently, I was having a disastrous weekend, had already been to the ER twice, and still had lots of leakages. I finally sat down at the computer and started going to websites, anything that dealt with ileostomies. I finally found the site of a hospital that specialized in the surgery. I dialed the phone number and after talking to a few different departments, I was transferred to the wing where the nurses treated the patients that were recovering from the surgery. I spoke to a wonderful nurse who told me exactly what to do. For me, it was a moment I'll never forget because, as ostomates, we do not have "systems" like most other people, and we speak a different language, literally. So, to find someone who can relate to you is a godsend! I wish there were some way that we could have "sponsors" like those people in AA, someone we could call when there is a problem, or maybe we could register our type of surgery and when a fellow ostomate has a problem, we could get an email alert. How cool would that be? Armywifenmom, please dear, give yourself time to recover from major surgery. Your body has to recoup, and so do your emotions. I am not sure how it works, but it seems as though the nurses that help with your appliance should be coming more often; maybe a call to your doctor could arrange that? You say that you are weak. There is a product called Emergen-C. It is supposed to have lots of minerals and vitamins. I also drink those "Carnation" instant breakfasts (there may be other brands), but instead of just one, I use two packets at one time. Plenty of vitamins there. I also know, in my case, that music is therapeutic. I have a favorite band and singer that never fail to make me feel better. And as someone with depression, it has pulled me through some very bad lows. Another thing I keep in mind is this: to me, each day is a gift, and I choose to honor it with love, laughter, and music. I wish you peace of mind and hope that each day is getting easier and better for you : ) You are my hero!