Hi, Currentsitguy, My name is Marsha, and I've had my permanent ileostomy for more than 50 years, since I was a child. 4 years of ulcerative colitis, treatment, hospitals, complications, was all that I could handle, and I was so grateful that there was a solution, that I accepted my ileostomy without question. I was a "kid", and all I wanted to do was to get back to my pain-free life at school, and with friends... Through the years, there were ups and downs, and I had to make adjustments. Those were the olden times, and the supplies reflected that... It's gotten so much easier over the years, with disposable appliances, and the variety of supplies. Managing the colostomy is a "journey" and being "repulsed" by your new "belly button", is counterproductive. It does the same thing as your "anus/asshole" did for you...but now it's relocated. "Shit" is still just "shit", was my philosophy as a kid... It washes off with water, clean the skin, prepare the bag/wafer, and paste it on. Some people with colostomies choose to irrigate... They filter water into their stoma... (with a tube) wait about an hour...relaxing in bed, or on the toilet, until the "liquified" stool makes its way out. Some do it daily (at night) and others every other day, depending on your system. It's a way of regulating the output, so you can be out and about more easily. Will you have accidents? There are no guarantees. Sometimes it just happens. Just something to live with...It helps to read the posts on this site, and chat with people whom you think can help you. Best of luck, Marsha.