Finding Hope and Healing After Surgery

Well, I was really laying down some negative thoughts on the last blog, so get ready for some more! Just kidding. Actually, I have had a miracle occur in the last few months. The agonizing pain I have been living in from the damaged pudendal nerves has FINALLY just about stopped hurting! Yeah! Praise God! The 36 years of Crohn's was not the only factor causing me to have such a bitter attitude, though I still hate wearing bags for 34 years. The horrible pain that I have been in since my colon and rectal surgery has finally eased off to the point that I can feel alive again. It is a part of having Crohn's that is not a typical symptom such as so many other aspects. Being in constant agony will affect anyone with any kind of physical problem. I can deal with all the normal, everyday life problems of being an ostomate, but the severe pain had me in a different mode of living, or "not living"! I am even slowly but surely getting off the narcotics. Taking all of that crap is enough to make life miserable, and I am feeling better not eating pills all day. It also feels better to not have to live in so much severe anxiety and stress from the pain in my "butt", literally. Soooo......I guess there is life after a surgery gone bad. Still an ostomate, but a much happier one! Good luck and prayers to all the "newbies" out there. And remember, when you don't think things will ever get any better, you can know that there is always hope, so keep ya chin up and don't ever give up! You can do it! May God bless us all, now and forever. Lazymule

Hello, it sounds like you have also been through a lot. I feel like my life is over. It's been close to five months now, and I'm still not used to this whole mess.

It's been 38 years for me and I too have been living with chronic pain and drugs, although not for the same kind of pain. We all have those times when things seem so overwhelming that it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there and God bless. Sassy

Glad you are feeling better. I am not a paid member any longer, but if you have replies from me with contact information, give me a ring. Jan

You sound wonderful! I'd love to talk to you, almost a year since my surgery for rectal cancer, and just six months out of Chemo. I'm a baggie. You seem to know so much and have successfully come through it all. I'm still afraid of the next day. Any advice is welcome.

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