Don't drink a huuuuge red Gatorade. Because then you will poo reddish and freak out until you realize duh, red Gatorade. That was fun. I'm 99% sure it isn't blood as I had so much red blood coming out pre surgery due to rectal cancer that I know the look and smell but dear Lord it scared me for a moment!
When will I stop freaking out? Every thing is do new that every gas pain or poop or soreness and I'm like crap I'm dying. Probably also a weird form of p.t.s.d. people get often as they battle cancer and stuff but I'm far too alert as to what my body is doing. And if it stopped cramping I would panic, too, like what's wrong there must be a blockage nothing's going on... even my Dr. Told me my body is still adjusting. Due to a t blocker my innards didn't even wake up until 36 hours post op and my surgery was late afternoon Sept 12 so my body is still healing and adjusting.
I just want the worry gone. Ive been worrying since diagnosis in march.
