Today is the start of a new day.
I was 37 the other day, and what a year it's been.
The issues.
Well, the mental ones of having the bag on my side and the hernia, which make the bag stand out, are ones that we all need to deal with.
So, how do I cope with having to poo into a bag every day?
How do I cope with having a bag on my side that everyone can notice if they look hard enough, with the hernia sticking out?
Well, to be honest, having had really bad colitis for many years and not being able to do anything because of the need for the toilet puts things into perspective.
I mean, when you go through a really bad time with colitis, which we all know, having a bag is not really that bad, is it?
Okay, what's gone on in the last year?
I've lost my soon-to-be ex-wife because of it and many other things, which I won't say on here. She did things to me, but she hated my colitis even before I had the bag, never understood what it's like to have to cope on your own. Anyway, I got treated like dirt on your shoe for 7 years while I was ill and waiting for the operation. I dealt with it on my own, mixing and remixing music, and writing poems, songs, and adverts. Oh, I got a really good one for the Galaxy bar. Anyway, to the point, lol. Oh, where was I? Oh yes, and with the prospect of having a bag, well, I had many years of dealing with life being so terrible, having to cope on your own. When the bag did finally come, I was mentally prepared; it was just dealing with the issues of maintaining the stoma bag I needed to deal with.
So, in a way, I have a bag on my side, but what I've had to endure in the past 7 years, well, to be honest, the bag is not so bad compared to what I had to put up with before the bag.
So that's how I cope with the bag and its dealing on a daily basis.
I think about what life was like before the bag, and now, without being treated like you're worthless, being treated like dirt because of an illness you never asked for, with some person getting you down, life feels good.
Okay, I'm a strong-willed guy, and now I'm getting my life back to the way it should be, without all the crap, pardon the pun, lol.
Okay, so now I'm single. I felt like I was on my own even when I was with my ex for 7 years, so well, all it's done is now I'm very fussy about the person I want to share and be in my life. Hence my profile. Okay, some would say TMI; I say it's to the point and honest.
I don't mess people around and don't want to be messed around anymore. I'm clear about what I want in life, even if it's sometimes hard to see, but I still battle on, living each day as it comes.
So that's a day in the life of Geoff. All I need now is to find that special someone who is very understanding and can handle a loving, genuine guy and wants to be loved and cared for just like I want. You could say I'm Romeo looking for his Juliet. Well, when I get a moment to update a day in the life of, I will. Take care for now. x x Geoff
To be loved, to be cared for, to be that special one.
