Frustrated 😣

Hey guys. I don’t normally do this but I need to vent. I went out today shopping and out to eat where I ate about 8 ounces of food, had ONE alcoholic drink that I sipped on for 2 hours, drank 12 ounces of water and about 1-1/2 hours later I feel like I need to repaint my bathroom.  This happens occasionally and normally doesn’t get me down but this time it did. I’m 9 months after colostomy. I need gracilis muscle flap surgery to see if my fistula will heal before I can even think about a reversal. 
The success rate is low for this surgery for people who have fistulas due to radiation (cervical cancer) such as myself, like 20 to 30%. This percentage is nationwide not local. 
Anybody else ever have a pity party? I try so hard not to but this has really gotten me down.

 

You can do whatever u want here, sweetie. We get it.

U might just have slow down yur intake. That alcohol could have been a trigger. U were on yur feet all day, no? 

Being out was crazy today driving..in malls..food store.

That too gets to me big time and u aren't even aware of it until u rest. 

Sounds like u just had a rough long day.

The other things..hmm. likely are contributing factors.

I'm sorry . I feel yur pain. I'd reach out to Alabama to hug ya if my arms were longer. ( whispers- I know how to paint)

Perhaps get involved in a distraction?  

Let  me start.   Whatcha doing for holidays?  Family? friends? travel?

Or..( moments later)  did u see the new car thing at night.?  I'm driving home late last night. We had a wintery mix. Our first for winter and it's wet. Snow trucks are spreading salt. Alongside me whizzing past me appears to be this lady bug looking car all lit up in lights. Covers front to back .over the hood..roof..trunk.. I thought "Telsa"..but it was dark.

White lights .looked like pimples. On wheels. So I asked myself . " WARRIOR"...if that car breaks down.. does the driver see a mechanic or dermatologist?😋

 

Hello Warrior!

Happy Holidays to you 🎄🥳

I thank you so much for your kind reply. I am too tired at this time to get involved in a distraction LOL but I will do so shortly.  I need a hug. Tried to get my cat to hug me but he is not interested.  I am sure I will be in a better state of mind tomorrow. 

I will be going to my nephews’ home for Christmas lunch and am looking so forward to that. Maybe I can nibble on a roll. 

what about you? 

Happy Holiday to you as well. Rough start though huh? All that thinking. It too can exhaust ya. Then u can't sleep.  Having a pet sure helps. Thankfully it's not Charcoal...beachboy's obsessed weasel. 

This daylight savings is hard getting used to as well. 

Are u working at all or retired now? I'm still working. 

I will be with my sis on Wednesday. Was invited to my best friend house  for the eve.  But declined. I'm seeing lighted cars. At night. That or Christmas trees grew wheels.  

So sorry Warrior I did not read your reply all the way.  Very amusing although not sure of the correct answer but I’m going with dermatologist 😉

Words of Encouragement from Ostomy Advocates I Hollister

I had to leave my part-time job earlier this year due to fistula, surgery and my recovery took so long, I just guess they got tired of waiting. It’s difficult to find a part-time bookkeeping job, but I may start looking soon!

Have a great visit with your sis. I hope you have a wonderful holiday season!!

Sorry to hear this.  If it makes you feel better, after reading this, I too need to paint the bathroom!

I'm not sure what I ate that caused my eruption. Possibly the spicy atomic pumpkin beer didn't get along with the peanut butter porter I had for lunch.

Looking forward to a lighter weigh in tomorrow! 🫂

I’m gonna start painting the house after the holidays. What color are you doing the bathroom in? I’m thinking either going back to white or beige. Time to spruce/freshen things up. Always good to have a little project going on. 

U too at yur nephews. Thank you.  

Re: my 1st post..the last part was added after my second post. An after thought..I think. 

Do keep an eye out on them lady bugged pimple white light cars.  U might be right. A Derm.. indeed.👍  

Get some rest. U had a long exhausting day.  Instead of a hug here's Teddy.🧸 while I streeeeeeeech my arms. 

Agreed abt projects. Keeping busy..An idle mind allows the stoma to spray. ( but it ain't no paint gun).  

We all feel you here. I have had my share of pity parties, I promise. 

I'm sure the exertion got to you. I'm tired just thinking about all you did! The hard part is knowing you could have done that before you got sick with no problems. You'll be back to that soon enough. 

My employer just gave me an ultimatum and I have to go back to work in Jan or lose my job. It's much too good of a job to lose. So I'm trying it part-time at first with a promise to get back to full-time as my condition improves.  What worries me is that I have 2 post-surgical fistulas that may need surgery so I may be starting back just to leave again. Sigh 

Now that I've made this all about me... enjoy your nephew tomorrow and your holidays in general. 

Post a pic of your cat and I will gush all over him. 🤣

Aside to warrior: dermatologist 100%

Hello,

Those are times we all face.  Wafer/bag leaks, gas blowing out like a volcano.  Look down... see that damn lump. 

It's gets better with time.  At first I was a pity poop with my wife.  "Oh woe is me"  She told me to shut up, be happy I survived.  Sigh....I didn't get a shoulder to cry on there.  I'm at 2 years post op now.  I've learned to be happy again.  Ignore the little beast hanging around my belly.  I know if I eat fun stuff....  keep a close eye on the bag.  I also use an IGGIE clip to secure the drain.  Saved me many times when my bag filled up like a football, but didn't leak.

Wishing you good luck and happy holidays.