Hello all
I really don't know what I am seeking from this post exactly. Just general support, I guess. So here goes my story, my fears, and indecision.
Last year on May 26th, I was diagnosed with colon cancer. I did amazingly well with that. No radiation, but I did do 6 months of chemotherapy. I finished my last treatment on Feb 8th of this year. I was left with a colostomy bag and at first thought my world had ended. I was scared to death.
Chemotherapy (for me anyway) was a breeze. No bed of roses and of course, I would have preferred to not have to. But I did and now I am glad I did. Chemotherapy (for some anyway, like me again) is not the horror story it used to be. But I know it can be for some. But that is not why I am posting, so let me get back on track here.
..smiles...
When I had my surgery, my surgeon told me I could have a reversal done once I finished chemo. I couldn't wait. Now, as time went on, I thought about nothing more than how long till I could feel normal again. I was so excited knowing I could have it reversed. It was part of my strength.
Now that day is here and surgery is scheduled for less than a month away, and I am having doubts. I find myself pondering over the normal questions. Maybe I should just keep the ostomy pouch. I am doing well with it and very few problems. But it does tend to make me self-conscious and worried about accidents, if I smell...etc. But I feel good.
Will I be so lucky with a reversal? I don't know. No one does, or what to expect aside from those who have had it. After all, that is another surgery just when I am feeling normal again and doing so well....
Problems could arise, as with any surgery. I was told by my surgeon I might even have to have another surgery, an ileostomy, but he didn't think I would. Then there is the recovery time. So, I guess I am just needing some stories from some of you and your experiences with it.
Thank you